The Results Came Today

Govener's School For the Art's results came today...
I didn't make it. Quite the bummer.
For those of you who don't know what it is, in a bombshell its a three week arts program in the summer held in Louisville for Junior and Sophomore students in Kentucky who are interested in the arts. Throughout the program students take fieldtrips, work with professors, help the community, enjoy performances by some great artist, and are mentored to live life as a community of artist. Its pretty cool and its like a big deal to be accepted. Only 225 kids get in each year.
This year it wasn't me.
The good news is that I'm only a sophomore so I can audition next year. The bad news is I didn't make it.

But, it's alright. Why?
Well.. I have to trust that this is all because God has something bigger in store for me, and I guess I'll find out. And in all honesty, its almost a relief. Don't get me wrong. I wanted to make it, and if I did, I'd be flipping out right now, but it feels good to just write without the pressure of being reviewed, without the pressure of feeling like Oh! I have to do this so I can get in. I write because I love to write. Not for anyone else.

My friends are all trying to console me, telling me that I'm talented. Gosh do I love the support team I have in my life... But lets be honest: I'm not the best. I'm not at all saying that I'm not talented, because I've stood amazed as people have teared up because of what I've written, or impacted their life, and I don't think that happens when people don't have talent. But I'm not the best.

I'm not saying this because I didn't make it, or because I don't think I'm good enough. I say this because the fact that I'm not the best means I can only get better. And I want my passion to grow and watch my writing progress. It excites me that it is going to get better, and that God has big plans for me.

So I didn't make it, but I want to give GSA a big thanks for reviewing me and helping me grow as a writer, and for making me WANT to be better. You'll see me next year :)
Thanks to my support team: Mom, Dad, Sister, friends, mentors. Everyone who cheered me on and prayed for me. Thanks to Corrie for enduring this process with me, and to Ireland for not letting me not audition! Thanks to everyone who thinks I need improvement, and everyone who takes the time to read what I write, poetry, articles, everything.

This is my passion. I don't know if I'll make a career out of it, but I love it. I've said this a million times.

So hey, Might As Well go after my dreams.:)