Goodbye

Friendship is something quite amazing. I mean, I don't understand how someone could be in your life for so long, and then goodbye steps in and you have to wish them farewell. You have to leave them with things unspoken, unheard, undone, and the story of your friendship feels unfinished.

You wonder if you could have fixed it. You ponder if its too broken to ever be fixed. Perhaps you overreacted. Maybe they were fake all along. What was real? How did the end go down? Nothing is really clear, and if you cared for them as much as you thought then you hope with all that's within you that someday it will all come back to you.

The silence between you two is louder than any argument could ever be. Their eyes avoiding your when you're near each other is like putting salt on an open wound because you remember when eye contact used to be code for some ridiculous inside joke.

You know that you're both different people now. Time has taken affect and growing up has had it's way and you've grown apart. All the plans you used to make together will never come through. But this is where you put all these thoughts and reverse and ask yourself, am I okay?
Do it. Ask yourself.

I did. Because I realize that some people are forever and others are only meant to be in your life for a short time. Losing people happens, it hurts, but can you move on? If your life although now lacking someone who used to be essential, can still continue, then I promise someday it'll all work out.

Maybe things will never be the same. Maybe I'll never have her to laugh with me again, maybe he'll never be there to answer my late night calls, but I have to go on, just like they have. I have to, because at some point in what used to be our friendship they would have wanted me to rid myself of anything or anyone holding me back.

It's over. It wasn't fixable. But it doesn't have to end on bad terms. I sure don't want it to.
Maybe that chapter is over, but hey might as well see how the rest of the story roles out.